Christmas Feeling

Cookies, Family, Carols, and Joy.

Christmas can mean a lot of things to some people. Its a time a year when family come together again and exchange gifts and love. For some its religious, for some its just another holiday that companies want to make money off of. Children consider it a time they can finally get that toy they've been wanting from the Fat Jolly Man while adults can indulge themselves with some eggnog. Christmas is a lot of things that bring hearts together.

People cling to what they call "holiday spirit." A feeling of pure content and thankfulness for the people around them. For the past couple of years, I haven't felt its presence when Christmas comes around.

Don't get me wrong, I've been around family and friends that love me dearly. I've trimmed my Christmas tree every year and made sugar cookies with the family. Christmas traditions have always been apart of the annual routine and I couldn't imagine myself doing anything else around the time December 25th is fast approaching. However, a certain bliss that I cherished every year seems to have fleeted.

Maybe its because I'm older and I no longer believe in an all-knowing man that knows how good I've been and sneaks into my house to drop off presents. Maybe its because I haven't seen a proper white Christmas in a few years. There is not one single reason alone that has caused me to lose that special feeling. It is all in my mindset in the end.

I've learned that there is no perfect formula for the spirit of Christmas. You can't expect for every little thing to happen the way you want it to be. Its more likely than not that your ideal holiday will not be everything you wished for. And that's okay.

Happiness should be almost spontaneous and never forced. Its organic and there isn't a perfect way to go about it. I think I have stressed over wanting to be happy and trying to make it happen to the point where I can't be happy when I'm doing the things that used to always fill me with joy.

I hope that by Christmas maybe I'll feel the holiday spirit again, but, if not, I know that everything will turn out okay.